Most individuals living with OCD understand the "C" in the acronym: Compulsions. We recognize these as behaviors—whether mental or physical—that we have developed, knowingly or unknowingly, to reduce anxiety or discomfort. In cases of Pure O, we might not wash our hands 20 times, but we engage in other rituals: mental checking, reassurance seeking, analyzing, and reviewing. These are compulsions just the same. While overt actions like hand-washing or repeatedly asking others the same question for reassurance are easy to spot, subtle compulsions are far more deceptive. A subtle compulsion is still a compulsion. It is hidden so effectively that we often do not realize we are engaging in it. The Problem with Self-Reassurance Almost everyone with OCD has used a phrase like this at some point: "It’s just an OCD thought. I’m not this thought. Let it go." On the surface, this sounds harmless, even healthy. However, that is exactly why it is dangerous; it is a form of self-reassurance. By saying this, you are attempting to feel safe, calm, and certain again. But what happens next? The brain inevitably counters with: "Wait, what if this isn't OCD?" Immediately, you are pulled back into the loop. This kind of subtle compulsion provides temporary relief, but just like overt rituals, it ultimately fuels the OCD cycle. Other Subtle Compulsions You Might Not Have Noticed Labeling the Disorder: Calling OCD a "monster" or a "villain" can sometimes be a way to distance yourself through a compulsion of "othering" the thought. Urgency in Recovery: Thinking, "I need to get rid of OCD as fast as possible," can become a compulsion itself. In later stages of recovery, this often evolves into Meta OCD, where you become obsessed with the process of recovery itself. How to Identify These Subtle Compulsions There are two primary ways to catch these sneaky behaviors: 1. Self-Monitoring Start tracking your recovery journey daily. Keeping a log helps you become aware of what you are actually doing in response to distress. Record the following: Your triggers and intrusive thoughts. The level of anxiety you felt (rate it on a scale). The specific ritual or compulsion you performed. The duration of the entire episode. This practice allows you to notice tiny habits that seem "normal" but are secretly keeping the disorder alive. 2. Work with a Specialized OCD Coach or Therapist A trained professional can catch the patterns you miss. They can gently point out behaviors that feel comforting but are actually compulsions in disguise. Recovery is not just about resisting the major rituals; it is about catching the sneaky ones too. Wishing all the best to every OCD warrior out there. Stay aware, stay curious, and keep learning. By your coach, Kartikey